How to hide it at dinner

If you are under 18 and you eat family dinner every night it can be hard to come up with new excuses every night, and your family will be suspicious if you never eat and constantly say you don't like foods you used to like. So here's a couple tricks I've learned from eating with my family

• Don't ask for smaller portions of everything. Choose the most high calorie thing and ask for less of that. 
• If you are eating something with a tail, like shrimp, or any kind of end that needs to be cut off, "accidentally" cut off half the food as well. 
• Hide food under other food. But don't do it in quick jerky movements. Do it at a regular speed when people are engaged in a conversation. 
• Become a vegetarian or vegan
• Tell your family your not feeling well. 
• Tell your family you have a LOT of homework to do and can't eat with them but you will eat later. 
• Leave the house after telling you family your going to a friends house. Come back a few hours later and say you ate
• Try to eat when only the less strict parent about food is at the table. 
• Say you don't like crust or things with tough ends as a way to cut off half your food. (This works best with foods like a sandwich or lasagna) 
• If you ever have a dinner you just CANT eat, the whole thing is way too fatty  and calorie filled, accidentally knock your plate on the floor, but only use this as a last resort, because it can break the plate and your family will notice if every night you knock your plate off the table.
• If you have animals feed some of it to them.
• Wear your hair down so you can smear foods like soup or sauces in it. 
• Wear clothes with lots of pockets so you can stash food in your pocket when no one is looking. 
• Offer to help out with cooking- then you control what goes in food. But don't make it too obvious or someone will get suspicious. 

That's all I can think of for now. Let me know in the comments section if you think of any others. 

Tips, Restaurants, and avoiding Binges

Restaurants

1. Drink a glass of water before going.
2. If really hungry have some tea, or even veggies beforehand.
3. If at a restaurant drink at least a full glass of water before the food comes.
4. Take a sip in between each bite.
5. Eat slowly.
6. Sabotage food with too much salt, etc.
7. Try eating with opposite hand (if right handed use left hand and vise versa)
8. To avoid temptation, don't even look at the section of the menu with the fattening foods. Out of sight, out of mind, out of body.
9. Stick to ordering items including the words ' baked' 'broiled' and 'steamed'.
10. Always order sauces on the side 
11. Dip the tines of your fork into the dressing then into meal, so you can still taste the sauce but with a fraction of the calories.
12. Eat half and pack it up
13. Start with soup or side salad to fill you.
14. Eat in the order of veggies first, protein next, carbs last.
15. Have salad with only negative calories vegetables.
16. Try not to be the first to start or last to finish.
17. Aim to drink at least 3 glasses of water during the meal.
18. Put your utensils down between each bite.
19. Talk a lot so you spend more time speaking than eating.
20. Look up the nutritional info online before going to the restaurant so you can decide before hand what you want.
21. Ask for lunch size portion or children's size.
22. Say 'No thank you' to dessert. 

1. RULES, RULES, RULES. This is important. You need to set rules for yourself, and if you are truly ana, you will have no problem sticking to them because you are STRONG! Rules are everything. Examples: Don't eat anything white. Do not, under any circumstances, eat after 6:00. Don't eat before 3:00. Cut each bite into x amount of pieces, chew x amount of times. Do not eat anything that has over 3 grams of fat. Make your own and keep adding to them.
2. Ana must be the center of your life.
3. Drink a full glass of water before you eat and then sip a full glass between bites, you'll get full much faster. Remember it takes 20 minutes for the brain to realize the stomach is full.
4. Eat denser food because it feels like more. Light and fluffy foods compact in your digestive tract and you will feel hungry soon after.
5. Take out only the amount of food you plan to eat and don't allow seconds.
6. Think before you eat. Don't eat while distracted (TV, etc). Stop and consider if you really want to eat that then consciously give yourself permission.
7. 4 100-calorie meals is better than one 400-calorie meal.
8. Never eat anything bigger than about a cup, your stomach will expand and you'll get hungry more. If you need to, eat more frequently, not bigger amounts.
9. Slim-Fast and other "healthy" bars and shakes have more carbs and calories than in the meal they're intended to replace. Stay away.
10. Drink at least a glass of water every hour. It's better for weight loss to sip throughout the day than to chug a full glass (except before eating, in which case it can make you eat less, or make you slightly nauseous so you don't want to eat at all). Try keeping a water bottle somewhere you'll see it a lot, like every 10-20 minutes, and take a drink from it every time you see it/notice it.
11. Drink up to a shot of apple cider vinegar before eating, it's supposed to minimize fat absorption. Also speeds metabolism and can help curb cravings. Drinking more than a shot causes a vague nausea which helps suppress appetite.
12. Ice or gum are good food substitutes. Celery works too if you're really hungry.
13. Use small, dark colored plates. Dark blue or black makes you eat less, and smaller plates and utensils cause you to take smaller portions from the start.
14. Make a list of "bad" foods. Periodically, cross one of the list and pledge to never, ever eat it again. Eventually there will be none left.
15. Eat in front of a mirror, naked or in underwear if possible. If you can't, carry a picture of yourself in a revealing outfit and look at it when you want to eat. When you have cravings pinch your fat and look at your problem areas, don't add to them!
16. Eat a lot of fiber for digestive health and low calories.
17. Create a methodical routine for eating. Cut food into tiny pieces, count your bites and the number of times you chew, set your utensils down between bites, and sip water between bites. Add other rules or rituals of your own.
18. Eat higher-calorie items earlier in the day so you have more time to burn them off; if you eat late eat light or it will be more likely to be stored as fat due to inactivity. Try not to eat too late, sleep burns calories and is a good opportunity to burn fat with little effort. The body must burn through all digesting food before taking energy from stored food (fat).
19. When you go out, take very little money or only enough to buy whatever non-food item you plan on buying. This will make it harder to buy food on impulse.
20. Don't take bites, either from others' food or while cooking, as the calories add up surprisingly fast and you may not realize how much extra you're taking in.
21. Write down everything you eat and its calories. This will make you think before eating and also make you more aware of how much food and calories you are actually consuming. You can also write down other things such as how you're feeling, who you're with, place, time, and why you chose to eat it, this will help you track patterns in your eating behavior.
22. Wear a rubber band around your wrist and snap it when you want to eat. Food = pain.
23. Set a time you cannot eat past. 6:00 or 7:00pm are good choices. This is especially helpful if you are prone to night binging. Then make a rule that you cannot eat before 6:00 or 7:00AM, this is like having a 12-hr fast every day.
24. You shouldn't eat for at least 3 hours before going to bed. The extra hours will help burn off the calories. If you eat soon before sleeping, you absorb more calories due to inactivity and you put on weight.
25. Have a peppermint or peppermint tea. Peppermint decreases hunger.
26. Brush your teeth when you want to eat. The clean feeling and mint aftertaste will put you off food.
27. Press on your stomach when it grumbles. TUMS also stop stomach growling and have calcium.(5 calories a piece so be careful!)
28. Carry a list of all the reasons you want to be thin and avoid food. Look at it when you want to eat to remind yourself why you won't. Or, write a new list every time you want to eat. It'll distract you, postpone eating, and thinking of the reasons will inspire you.
29. Cut a ribbon the size you want your waist to be. wrap and tie it around your wrist like a bracelet. Every time you look at it you'll be reminded of your goals. When you're tempted, take it off and wrap it around your waist. See how close you are, or how far you have to go, and resist the temptation.
30. Always leave at least one bite of food on your plate. This will help you to be able to stop eating and prevent binges. It will also stop you from compulsively finishing portions even when you have eaten enough.
31. Save $1 for every meal you don't eat, then use the money to buy yourself a non-food present.
32. Friends will only get in the way. Avoid them until you reach your goals.
33. Never eat in secret. This is a terrible habit that leads to compulsive binging. If you wouldn't eat it in front of all your friends you shouldn't be eating it at all! Also if you only eat around other people they will know that you do eat and assume you eat alone as well, thus lessening suspicion that you have an ED.
34. Never eat out of a box or jar. Always eat from a plate or bowl. This will help you in several ways: You will see how much you are really eating; you can determine in advance how much you will eat and not go back for seconds; using a small plate or bowl will make you eat even less; you can count/measure out an exact serving and know the accurate amount of calories you are consuming.
35. Give clothes to Goodwill as they get too big for you. Don't keep them around "just in case."
36. If you live alone, put thinspo and/or reverse thinspo pictures on the pantry and refrigerator. A mirror works well too.
37. When you have hunger pangs, picture your stomach eating away your fat, and that what you feel is the feeling of thinness and your fat burning away. 
38. Coffee is an appetite suppressant. Drink it black or with Splenda or other no-calorie sweetener.
39. Count your bites, and the number of times you chew them. Plan in advance how many bites you can have. Then make them smaller or use smaller utensils. 
40. Paint your nails so you can't eat until the polish dries. Teeth whitening strips are good too.
41. Drink water before eating. If you're still hungry, drink green tea or broth. If you still need to eat, you'll eat less than you would have.
42. Eat low-calorie foods with strong flavors. Sometimes you're craving taste, not food. For bouillon, use less water than is recommended. Peppermints, pickles, peppers, and mustard are good choices.
43. Do not eat anything unless you know the exact amount of calories in it. 
44. Chew gum while cooking. That way you can't take bites while it is cooking, and you won't want to eat it once it's done.
45. Keep food out of sight, not sitting out, and stay away from food and the kitchen to keep your mind off it. 
46. Keep a pocket thinspo in your wallet with your cash so you won't spend money on food.
47. For sweet cravings, lick a chopstick and dip it into a diet Swiss Miss pack.
48. Write your current weight on one hand, and your goal weight on the other. When you go to eat, you'll be reminded how fat you are, and how skinny you could be.
49. The Four D's:
         Distance yourself from food.
         Distract yourself.
         Delay eating
         Decide what your goals really are.
50. Green tea raises metabolism and is very good for the skin and overall health. Drink it in the morning to increase metabolism for the day. Add lemon to make it more effective and to add a detoxifying aspect.
51. Hot water with lemon is another good morning drink.
52. Spicy foods raise metabolism, if you don't like them you can take cayenne pepper capsules available in supplement section of drugstores or health food stores.
53. Drinking apple cider vinegar is said to raise metabolism, have a few tablespoons, can also be mixed in water (with lemon would be best) or used as salad dressing.
54. Start the morning with stretching to wake up your muscles, the morning is also the best time to exercise because your body will use stored food (fat) as fuel instead of food you ate. It also processes food better throughout the day and gives you more energy if you exercise in the morning.
55. Get at least 6 hours of sleep each night, less than this can decrease metabolism by 10% and increase appetite by 15%. You look better and feel better when you have more sleep also if you're sleeping then you're not eating!
56. Keep good posture, it burns 10% more calories throughout the day. You also look better.
57. Vitamin B6 and B12 raise metabolism and give you energy.
58. Eating protein increases your metabolic rate by 14%.

More Tips

FOOL your metabolism by constantly changing the number of calories you consume daily.  This will prevent yor body from going into starvation mode.  Meaning the lesser amounts of calories will make you gain weight.  For instance, eat 500 calories on monday, 100 on tuesday, 800 on wednesday, and 400 on friday.

Get a full nights SLEEP, atleast 8 hours.  Although staying up late does make you burn more calories, dont become sleep deprived or your metabolism will get sleepy too.

Take VITAMIN pills frequently so your body doesnt crave nutrients, causing binges

DIET COKE and other diet sodas causes that bubbly full feeling in your stomach, for about 1 calorie per class.

BRUSH YOUR TEETH and tongue all the time.  The feeling in your mouth will ease cravings and additionally, food will taste bad with toothpaste.

DRINK WATER like a fish.  Drink a glass of water or a diet soda, every hour on the hour.  Drink water everytime you have the urge for a snack.  ICE WATER is better since it burns up more calories.  Bear in mind that often we mistake thirst for hunger.

CAFFEINE will speed up your metabolism.  have two or three servings a day.

EXERCISE . Not only will you burn off te calories you consume when you do eat, but it will increase your metabolism for some time afterwards.

Stand up and move about constantly.  Compulsively FIDGET.  It does add up to an estimated extra 500 calories burned a day.

 

 

WHEN YOUR FEELING WEAK...
PINCH your thigh and see how you dont need food

Buy some BABY TEETHING GEL, and rub it on your tongue.  This will numb your taste buds.

Pinch your ear.  Apply pressure to the front of the ear, one at a time.  The front of the ear is apparentlya PRESSURE POINT, in the area that controls hunger.

LET PERFUME REPLACE CHOCOLATE.  Everytime you have a craving, or pass a bakery, sniff some CHANEL NO.5.  Apply it to a tissue and carry it with you.  Smell has a powerful effect on the appetite.

Safe foods

Safe foods- Even though these foods are low calorie don't be fooled. They can still cause binges and they can make you fat, but they are still better than regular food. I will update whenever I think of more. Enjoy and comment others you know of in the comments section!

Lettuce- 1 cup- about 10 calories

Grapes- 1- 2 calories each

Blueberries- 10 berries- 8 calories

Graham Crackers- 60 calories in 1 sheet (don't eat often because it will make you fat)

Brewers Vanilla Ice cream- 1/2 cup- 50 calories

Strawberries- 1- 6-13 calories depending on size

Vegetable broth- 1 cup- 15 calories

Cheerios- 1/4 cup- 25 calories (Be careful about eating any kind of cereal if you are at a risk of binging because I know for me it can trigger binging)

Trader Joes Corn Tamale- 1/2 tamale- 100 calories 

Special K chips- 1 bag- 90 calories

Campbells Chicken,Beef,or Veggie broth- 20cals--do not add water

5 fat free saltine- 70cals

5 sociable crackers- 70cals
21 veggie chips- 140cals

Dannon light n fit smoothie- 70cals

Smart Ones Calzone Italiano- 290cals per

Lean Pocket Chicken Fajita- 240cals per

Lean Pocket Turkey,Broccoli, and Cheese- 250cals per

Lean Cuisine Steak Tips Dijon- 280cals

Lean Cuisine Roasted Turkey Breast- 290cals

YUMMY RECIPE:
Pizza Muffins- 70-75cals per

Country Kitchen low-cal english muffins

*very* little mozzarella cheese

low-sodium, low-cal tomato paste

    Pre-heat oven to 350, split the english muffin, then proceed to spread a tbsp of tomato paste on each side of the muffin.  Then lightly sprinkle mozzarella cheese, bake pizza until cheese softens

Negative Cal food list

Hey hey people!! I wanted to share some of the secrets to eating and not gainging any weight!! The secret is---negative calorie foods---and yes they do exist!! Negative calorie foods are foods that are already very low in calories and are supposed to burn up more calories in the process of digesting them, than are actually contained in the foods themselves.  Here are some of those negative calorie foods:

Apples
Asparagus

Beets
Broccoli

Carrots
Celery

Cherries
Corn

Cranberries

Grapes

Green Beans
Lettuce

Peaches
Strawberries

Watermelon
Grapefruit

Green gabbage

Lemon-Mango

Orange

Pineapple

Rasberries
Papaya

Garlic
If anyone finds anymore of the negative calorie foods, let me know and post them on this page..I know there are more, but I just put down the ones that most people will actually eat.

Hiding Ana

Hiding Ana:
• Go to the kitchen and grab some snacks every now and then and take them to your room where they can quickly find the trash can and everyone thinks you've eaten.
• Make a big deal of it when you do eat...make it really obvious.
• Eat a small piece of strong scented food and people will think you've eaten something due to the breath issue!
• When you start losing weight, wear baggier clothes to hide the loss.
• When you get dizzy/head-rushes in front of people, LIE! Say you're ill or have had a real bad headache all day or are tired.
• Wear foundation/concealer to give your dulling complexion a boost.
• At meal times, when a plate is pushed in front of you, grab it and say you're going to eat it in your room...straight into the trash can.
• When a 'treat' is bought for you i.e. a tub of your fav ice cream or candies, take small amounts out every now and then and throw in the trash, that way people will think you're always nibbling.
 





Controlling The Cravings

• Smoker? If so light a cigarette, it really helps take away the cravings. (but im not saying you should start smoking - Dont)
• Hit your stomach - causes it to contract and so feel less hungry (and stops it making noises)
• Wear an elastic band on your wrist and snap it every time you get hungry.
• When you get a craving look at a reverse trigger picture
• Put on Pro-Ana music - always helps me think of how thin I wanna be and how I don't need food.
• Take a cold shower - not only does it help you stop feeling hungry, it burns calories.
• Go for a walk (especially around meal times) - good for you as well!!!
• Exercise! Its the answer to everything!
• Smell the food you want - count to a hundred and then throw it in the trash.
• Chew gum - you're chewing so it makes you think you're eating and its less than 5 cals a piece.
• Drink water and lots of it. (warm fills you up quicker, cold burns more cals)
• Read Pro-Ana sites.
• Get busy - really busy. Cleaning's always a good one!
 

Teqniques to eat less

-Drink lots of water! It fills you up fast and is good for clearing your body of toxins and hydrating your skin. 

-Drink cold drinks/water. For your body to maintain homeostasis (the same temperature), it burns more calories drying to heat the water. 

-Sit up straight and walk straight. You burn 10 calories every hour for doing this. 

-Split up a single serving into three or four seperate parts and eat one part at your meal. Therefore you are only eating one serving yet it serves as three/four. 

-When your hungry or feeling hunger pains, boil water with one or two bullion cubes. The warm water will help your stomach feel better and the bullion helps restore the decreased sodium intake in your body. (Bullion only contains 10-15 calories per cube)

 -If you're going to drink diet soda, drink quickly in large gulps. This will help fill you up faster and prevent hunger pains 

-Chew ice cubes if you feel hungry

 -Most people just want the taste of food, so chew the food you want and spit it out. Don't swallow the food!

-Drink a glass of water every hour. It helps your stomach feel full.

-When fasting, suck on low calorie candies or mints. It will help supress hunger (peppermints mostly) and keep your mouth busy.

-When you eat, set your fork down in between bites

-Chew slowly, it takes thirty minutes for your stomach to realize its full

-Excerise in the morning when you HAVEN'T eaten. You'll start burning fat and calories instantly. If you wait till later in the day it takes 10-20 minutes of excersize to start burning fat

-While watching television, do crunches during the commercial, NOT situps. Situps make your stomach larger with muscle while crunches tone your abs.

-Lower the tempeture in your house 10 degrees lower than what you are used to. It will make your body burn more calories to maintain homeostasis.

-Eat around 7-9 AM. That is when your metabolism is fastest

-Building muscle helps increase metabolism

-Drink tea when you're hungry. It fills you up and calms your stomach. Also, green tea boosts metabolism

-Chewing gum can increase hunger, but it helps keep your mouth busy

-Don't eat after 7 PM. You're metabolism is at its slowest

-Don't eat 3 hours before bed. The food can keep you semi-awake.

-Get at least 6-7 hours of sleep a night. For every hour that you miss of sleep, your apetite is increased by 10%

-Eat on a navy blue or black plate. It helps you eat less

-Eat on small plates, so if it is filled with food, your mind sees a full plate

-Go shopping after eating, grocery shopping after eating helps you buy less

-Sleep when you get a craving. When you wake up, you'll most likely no longer crave that food.

Weightloss helpers

Bmi Calculator
http://www.calculator.net/bmi-calculator.html

Ideal Weight Calculatorhttp://www.calculator.net/ideal-weight-calculator.html

Calories burned calculator
http://calcnexus.com/calories-burned-calculator.php

http://www.nutritiondata.com/tools/calories-burned

Things to do instead of eating

1.      Chat on Yahoo!
2.      Check out craigslist.com 
3.      Work on your site
4.      Go for a walk
5.      Do an ab workout
6.      Lift some weights
7.      Do jumping jacks
8.      Feed your pets
9.      Watch a movie
10.  Get caught up on your TV shows
11.  Make a list of why not to eat
12.  Call a friend
13.  Do your nails
14.  Whiten your teeth
15.  Try a new make up look
16.  Have a bath
17.  Try on some clothes
18.  Go shopping
19.  Buy vitamins
20.  Take an appetite suppressant
21.  Do hand wash laundry
22.  Clean up your desk
23.  Clean the bathroom
24.  Redecorate 
25.  Vacuum
26.  Organize something
27.  Do a load of laundry
28.  Visit a friend / have a friend visit
29.  Go get a wax
30.  Put on a facial mask
31.  Read a book / magazine
32.  Look at thinspo
33.  Work on your weight loss journal
34.  Surf the Internet
35.  Play a computer game

Why you don't give into cravings

1.      You’ll stay fat forever if you do
2.      You can eat when you’re perfect
3.      Food happiness is momentary
4.      You’ll regret it tomorrow
5.      You’ll pay for it later at the gym
6.      You really don’t want to
7.      You already decided not to
8.      Cravings are your brain misbehaving
9.      If you still want it tomorrow, eat it then
10.  A second on the lips, forever on the hips
11.  You’re stronger than this
12.  You’ll be strong and in control
13.  You’ll be happier
14.  You’ll be closer to your goals
15.  You can prove to yourself how strong you are
16.  Do you really want to spend money on food
17.  You are above giving in to cravings
18.  Too many times already you have given in
19.  You will never reach your goals if you’re weak
20.  Cravings are for fat girls
21.  Being weak is for fat girls
22.  Do you want to be a fat girl
23.  Guys will be able to pick you up easily
24.  Guys will be surprised at how light you are
25.  All clothes will look good on you
26.  You’ll look good in a bikini
27.  You’ll have a ‘delicate’ build
28.  You’ll be able to see your bones
29.  You’ll be able to keep your stomach flat
30.  So you can show everyone.

Rules and Comandmants of Ana

Ana's laws

Thin is beauty; therefore I must be thin, and remain thin, If I wish to be loved. Food is my ultimate enemy. I may look, and I may smell, but I may not touch!

I must think about food every second of every minute of every hour of every day... and ways to avoid eating it.

I must weigh myself, first thing, every morning, and keep that number in mind throughout the remainder of that day. Should that number be greater than it was the day before, I must fast that entire day.

I shall not be tempted by the enemy (food), and I shall not give into temptation should it arise. Should I be in such a weakened state and I should cave, I will feel guilty and punish myself accordingly, for I have failed her.

I will be thin, at all costs. It is the most important thing; nothing else matters.

I will devote myself to Ana. She will be with me where ever I go, keeping me in line. No one else matters; she is the only one who cares about me and who understands me. I will honor Her and make Her proud

Thin Commandments 

1. If you aren't thin you aren't attractive.
2. Being thin is more important than being healthy.
3. You must buy clothes, cut your hair, take laxatives, starve yourself, do anything to make yourself look thinner.
4. Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty.
5. Thou shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwards.
6. Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.
7. What the scale says is the most important thing.
8. Losing weight is good/gaining weight is bad.
9. You can never be too thin.
10. Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and success.

Dear Ana,

I offer you my soul, my heart and my bodily functions. I give you all my earthly possessions. I seek your wisdom, your faith and your feather weight.

I pledge to obtain the ability to float, to lower my weight to the single digits, I pledge to stare into space, to fear food, and to see obese images in the mirror.

I will worship you and pledge to be a faithful servant until death does us part. If I cheat on you and procreate with Ronald McDonald, Dave Thomas, the colonel or that cute little dog. I will kneel over my toilet and thrust my fingers deep in my throat and pray for your forgiveness. Please Ana, dont' give up on me. I'm so weak, i know but only you with your strength inside me will I become a woman worthy of love and respect.

I'm begging for you not to give up, I'm pleading with my shallow breathes and my pale skin. I bleed for you, suffer leg pains, headaches and fainting spells. My love for you makes me dizzy and confused I dont' know whether I'm coming or going. Men run when they see the love I have for you and never return. But they aren't important to me all thats important is that you love me.

If you stay with me, I will worship you daily, I will run miles a day, come rain, snow, bitter cold or searing heat I will run from the pain and in fright. I will do 1,000 sit ups a day and lie to my family about what I eat and how I feel.

I will stop weeping when I feel your warm arms embrace my shivering body. I will numb the hunger pains with razor blades and your strength.

Today I renew our friendship and resolve to be faithful to you year long, life long. I begin the year with a 3 day fast in honor of you. If you give me the strength to fade away I will love you and worship you forever.

When i'm finally faded to nothing, when you've given me the gift of ending this torturous life. I will float on to the next world and be thin and beautiful payment for my undying love for you in this world.

I ask only one more thing you, please ana, remove me from this hell, from this world ASAP. Please take away this hatred for my pain and allow me to be free and light.

Forever, Worthless One

Ana Psalm

Strict is my diet. I must not want. It maketh me to lie down at night hungry. It leadeth me past the confectioners. It trieth my willpower. It leadeth me in the paths of alteration for my figure's sake. Yea, though I walk through the aisles of the pastry department, I will buy no sweet rolls for they are fattening. The cakes and the pies, they tempt me. Before me is a table set with green beans and lettuce. I filleth my stomach with liquids, my day's quota runneth over. Surely calorie and weight charts will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the fear of the scales forever

Ana Creed

I believe in Control, the only force mighty enough to bring order to the chaos that is my world.

I believe that I am the most vile, worthless and useless person ever to have existed on this planet, and that I am totally unworthy of anyone's time and attention.

I believe that other people who tell me differently must be idiots. If they could see how I really am, then they would hate me almost as much as I do.

I believe in oughts, musts and shoulds as unbreakable laws to determine my daily behaviour.

I believe in perfection and strive to attain it.

I believe in salvation through trying just a bit harder than I did yesterday.

I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of god, and memorise them accordingly.

I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily successes and failures

I believe in hell, because I sometimes think that I'm living in it.

I believe in a wholly black and white world, the losing of weight, recrimination for sins, the abnegation of the body and a life ever fasting.

Ana lingo

Here's a glossary of abbreviations and terms that are used here, as well as other sites and forums.

Ana - Abbreviation: Anorexia

Ana Bracelet - Bracelet that is worn in specific colour combinations to identify the various eating disorders.  Does not apply to only bracelets that denote anorexia, may be used to denote mia, or ednos bracelets as well.

BED - Abbreviation: Binge Eating Disorder

COE - Abbreviation: Compulsive Over Eating

CW - Abbreviation: Current Weight

GW - Abbreviation: Goal Weight

ED - Abbreviation: Eating Disorder

EDNOS - Abbreviation: Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified.  For those who do not meet the clinical criteria for a defined eating disorder.

Food Porn - Pictures of food that an individual may like to eat.  Usual to replace a food that a person may want, or like to eat.

IP - In-patient (treatment)

LW - Abbreviation: Low Weight / Lowest Weight

Mia - Abbreviation: Bulimia

OCD - Abbreviation: Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

Pro-Ana / Proana - Those who believe that anorexia is a lifestyle choice.

Reverse Thinspo - Opposite of thinspo, visuals of what a person fears may happen to them.  May consist of pictures of overweight individuals, or people eating messily.

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SI - Abbreviation: Self Injury / Inflicted.  Those who cut or otherwise physically harm themselves.

Thinspiration - Any pictures / video, that inspires one to stick to their weight loss goals.  Will vary for each person, usually consists of visuals of an ideal body.

Thinspo - Thinspiration

UGW - Abbreviation: Ultimate Goal Weight

Ana culture- Bracelets and more....

Ana bracelets were an idea someone came up with so that individuals with eds could identify each other.  The original text has been copied and pasted many times, so why not again?

IFOF is a term that means "identification friend or foe" most commonly used in the aircraft industry. It is a thing on an airplane that tells people reading the signal if they are a friend or foe. We now have a system of our own. I got this from another site:

Have you ever wondered if the skinny girl you see has an ED (A or M)? And proud of it? You so desperately want to ask, or even try to make friends but are scared? Well, no more ... since we have our ribbon "Ana is a lifestyle..." and its red.

I propose that we all get a red beaded bracelet. You can make it or buy them. Wear it daily or when you go out to secretly say that you are proud to be pro-ana or proud to have an ED that is. Anytime you see someone wearing a red beaded bracelet, capture their eye contact and point to your bracelet, and if they return the same point to theirs ... then they are ED friendly. If not, then its just someone whom is wearing one. If you for some reason cant wear a red bracelet, then wear a red shirt every Monday!

Well, the red t-shirt thing never quite caught on, but the red bracelet has.  It's the only ED identification bracelet that's really standardized.  Most bracelets are beaded, and quite a few will have a dragonfly bead or clasp regardless of the colour.  Some say that ana bracelets are worn on the left wrist, and mia on the right.  Others say that the bracelet should be worn on the wrist that you eat with.  Here are the EDs and their corresponding colours.

Ana - Red

Mia - Blue (some also wear purple as mia, some wear dark blue for SI)

Ednos - Pink

General Ed - Purple (some also wear as mia)

SI - Black (some also wear dark blue)

White - to denote someone who is fasting.

There are other combinations listed, for those who are recovering etc., but I don't think those ever caught on, kinda like the red t-shirt thing.

You can make your own bracelet, or have someone make it for you.  If you don't have a friend who does this you can check online at eBay, or other sites.  You can search 'ana bracelet' but remember any beaded bracelet will do, so you may find it cheaper to find a generic bracelet. 

At one point all ana bracelets were made by the disordered, now a quick search on eBay shows me many sellers who are seeming to just want to cash in on the 'trend' by selling over priced bracelets with dragonflys.  Only a couple of sellers actually seem to have an ED, research who you buy from.  Try to keep it in the community.

Thinspo

Workout of the week

Here's the official workout of the week. This will help you drop pounds fast and easy.

30 squats
35 crunches
25 push-ups
40 crunches
35 squats
100 jumping jacks

Repeat as often as desired

It's a really good workout that will get your body moving. Also it can be done anywhere and except for the jumping jacks it's super quiet and easy to hide!

Letter From Ana

A letter from Ana

Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors," is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in you, and I expect the same from you.

In the past you have heard all of your teachers and parents talk about you. You are "so mature," "intelligent," "14 going on 45," and you possess "so much potential." Where has that gotten you, may I ask? Absolutely nowhere! You are not perfect, you do not try hard enough, furthermore you waste your time on thinking and talking with friends and drawing! Such acts of indulgence shall not be allowed in the future.

Your friends do not understand you. They are not truthful. In the past, when the insecurity has quietly gnawed away at your mind, and you asked them, "Do I look . . . fat?" and they answered "Oh no, of course not," you knew they were lying! Only I tell the truth. Your parents, let's not even go there! You know that they love you, and care for you, but part of that is just that they are your parents and are obligated to do so. I shall tell you a secret now: Deep down inside themselves, they are disappointed with you. Their daughter, the one with so much potential, has turned into a fat, lazy, and undeserving girl.

But I am about to change all that. I will expect you to drop your calorie intake and up your exercise. I will push you to the limit. You must take it because you cannot defy me! I am beginning to imbed myself into you. Pretty soon, I am with you always. I am there when you wake up in the morning and run to the scale. The numbers become both friend and enemy, and the frenzied thoughts pray for them to be lower than yesterday, last night, etc. You look into the mirror with dismay. You prod and poke at the fat that is there, and smile when you come across bone. I am there when you figure out the plan for the day: 400 calories, two hours exercise. I am the one figuring this out, because by now my thoughts and your thoughts are blurred together as one. I follow you throughout the day. In school, when your mind wanders I give you something to think about. Recount the calories for the day. It's too much. I fill your mind with thoughts of food, weight, calories, and things that are safe to think about. Because now, I am already inside of you. I am in your head, your heart, and your soul. The hunger pains you pretend not to feel is me, inside of you.

Pretty soon I am telling you not only what to do with food, but what to do ALL of the time. Smile and nod. Present yourself well. Suck in that fat stomach, dammit! God, you are such a fat cow!!!! When mealtimes come around I tell you what to do. I make a plate of lettuce seem like a feast fit for a king. Push the food around. Make it look like you've eaten something. No piece of anything . . . if you eat, all the control will be broken . . . do you WANT that?? To revert back to the fat COW you once were?? I force you to stare at magazine models. Those perfect-skinned, white-teethed, waifish models of perfection staring out at you from those glossy pages. I make you realize that you could never be them. You will always be fat and never will you be as beautiful as they are. When you look in the mirror, I will distort the image. I will show you obesity and hideousness. I will show you a sumo wrestler where in reality there is a starving child. But you must not know this, because if you knew the truth, you might start to eat again and our relationship would come crashing down.

Sometimes you will rebel. Hopefully not often though. You will recognize the small rebellious fiber left in your body and will venture down to the dark kitchen. The cupboard door will slowly open, creaking softly. Your eyes will move over the food that I have kept at a safe distance from you. You will find your hands reaching out, lethargically, like a nightmare, through the darkness to the box of crackers. You shove them in, mechanically, not really tasting but simply relishing in the fact that you are going against me. You reach for another box, then another, then another. Your stomach will become bloated and grotesque, but you will not stop yet. And all the time I am screaming at you to stop, you fat cow, you really have no self-control, you are going to get fat.

When it is over you will cling to me again, ask me for advice because you really do not want to get fat. You broke a cardinal rule and ate, and now you want me back. I'll force you into the bathroom, onto your knees, staring into the void of the toilet bowl. Your fingers will be inserted into your throat, and, not without a great deal of pain, your food binge will come up. Over and over this is to be repeated, until you spit up blood and water and you know it is all gone. When you stand up, you will feel dizzy. Don't pass out. Stand up right now. You fat cow, you deserve to be in pain! Maybe the choice of getting rid of the guilt is different. Maybe I chose to make you take laxatives, where you sit on the toilet until the wee hours of the morning, feeling your insides cringe. Or perhaps I just make you hurt yourself, bang your head into the wall until you receive a throbbing headache. Cutting is also effective. I want you to see your blood, to see it fall down your arm, and in that split second you will realize you deserve whatever pain I give you. You are depressed, obsessed, in pain, hurting, reaching out, but no one will listen. Who cares?!?!! You are deserving; you brought this upon yourself.

Oh, is this harsh? Do you not want this to happen to you? Am I unfair? I do do things that will help you. I make it possible for you to stop thinking of emotions that cause you stress. Thoughts of anger, sadness, desperation, and loneliness can cease because I take them away and fill your head with the methodic calorie counting. I take away your struggle to fit in with kids your age, the struggle of trying to please everyone as well. Because now, I am your only friend, and I am the only one you need to please.

I have a weak spot. But we must not tell anyone. If you decide to fight back, to reach out to someone and tell them about how I make you live, all hell will break lose. No one must find out, no one can crack this shell that I have covered you with. I have created you, this thin, perfect, achieving child. You are mine and mine alone. Without me, you are nothing. So do not fight back. When others comment, ignore them. Take it into stride, forget about them, forget about everyone who tries to take me away. I am your greatest asset, and I intend to keep it that way.

Sincerely,

Ana